searching for me

   Where did I go?
Did anyone see?
I am lost.
Cant you see?
I used to be in charge
I used to run my world
now I am ever changing
my universe unfurled.
catch me if i go by.
don't ask me to explain why.
my soul cries out to break away.
losing much of its sanity every day.
my strength is waning
the facade ever feigning
Im inside somewhere
looking for the light.
holding on for all my might.
don't loose sight of me.
throw my a line
set me free.

Lifted

The spirit inside
Forever trapped
Seeing nothing
Realizing everything
Still reaching
Always searching
Abominable potential
Restless heart

Today I found my lover

Today I found my lover
In doing so I found myself

So long afraid of him
I kept my heart on a shelf.

Wishing that he wanted me
So many years alone in the night.

Accusations and betrayal
Our only conversation were fights

My heart so longed for this boy
Now a man

He also longed for me
But I didn't understand

Now we have new life
Our hearts sing again

Today I found my lover
My soul mate and friend