Love living
Living fast

Multitude giving
Forgiving past

No future
Only now

Seeking solace
Learning how

Acceptance coming
Without regret

No running
Futility unmet

Winding down
Easier now

Feigning frowns
Resistance bows

Rising sun
Rest comes

Ode to twilight.

Ok I like twilight...read the books. But I don't swoon over the chacters. Here's a lil fun I made of it and posted on twitter just thought I'd post here.

Moody, moody,dark and broody how does you popularity grow?
With pale skin, dark hair, and vampy drama all in a row.

Wanton and wicked
Loved and hated

Shunned and ridiculed
Overlooked and underrated

Fighting for air
Struggling to breathe

Watching the horizon
Ready to leave

Living in dusk
Avoiding the dawn

Clinging to madness
Hope seemingly gone.

Gaining no ground
Leaving no trace

Minuscule of dignity
No saving face

Giving no excuses
Surviving just fine

Keep your condemning
Life is mine.

Never old

My greatest wish is to never grow old
To never have an aged soul

To never feel what you see outside
To pull from the child inside

To never slow down like my body would have it
To reach out for every one of life's fruits and grab it

To rejoice at every moment whether happy or sad
Accepting and soaking in all my experiences,good or bad.

To laugh in deaths face as he follows me around each bend
Then finally greet him with as a a friend at the end

To look back as we journey on and say I never wasted a minute
I loved my wonderful youthful life and how I lived it

youth

Youth come and listen; watch the old while they play

Not many sunsets from now you shall have your day

So many voices are conflicting, so much for you to learn

Don’t waste time with childish things they’ll cause your heart to yearn

Fix all that is broken the clock is ticking fast

Teach those that will listen before youth is your past

Some trials will be difficult with lots of defeat

Never give up and inside a victor’s heart will beat

                                              

There are no instructions for what you must do

Ahead lays an empty slate completely up to you.

Darkness will be prominent and hard to burn away

Persistence is the golden key to bring forth a new day

So live well be loyal , faithful and strong

You times has come and it won’t last long

Lies are nothing but sewage coming out of your mouth
Take your infection away from me maybe farther south

Go where the intolerant live, you'd be right at home
spewing your evil out, no need to roam

Just remember if I am an abomination
I was an innocent when I came to you
You had a hand in the result that is my compilation

Hate all you want I won't shed any tears
I promise there won't be any hidden fears

You don't run my mind any more
call me a sinner call me a whore

Your unbelieveable uneducated bullshit
Is a a perfect torture for your pains fit

If I am destined to burn for what I am
You'll be right there with me where I stand

So don't remember, blame it all on me.
I am not the one who can't be happy and free.

Found Lovers

Today I found my lover
In doing so I found myself

So long afraid of him
I kept my heart on a shelf

Wishing that he wanted me
So many years alone in the night

Accusations and betrayal
Our only conversations, fights

My heart so longed for this boy
Who is now a man

He also longed for me
But I didn't understand

Now we have new life
Our hearts sing again

Today I found my lover
My soul mate and friend


written Jun. 4 2011

No title.....speaks for itself

A government should fear it's people
At least that is what they say

But I think that for most of us
it is not this way

They are nipping away at our freedoms
bit by bit, one by one

Unless we stand up soon
our freedoms will be gone

Following along blindly
being afraid to speak

Does not makes us good citizens
It makes us all weak

We are all headed for a prison
one from which there is no escape

So shout it out loud
Let them all know

We are free and proud
We will not bow out and go

Time flies

Time flies as the saying goes
so kiss your lover
you may be gone tommorrow
one just never knows
Live every day to the fullest
lay the bad things to rest
have a light heart
not a heavey burdened chest
plalike a chiled
have an adventure like the wild
Stop for a happy cry
it's not hard at all
 all you have to do is try.
Dont ponder it too long
The whys, rights, and wrongs
just live and love
So when you meet God above
He won't have to say
Your only sin was forgetting to live for the day

2009

You don't know me

Im not as young as I used to be
Though I really do feel the same

Not much has changed about me
Accept the way I show my laughter
and the way I carry my pain

Im still that young firl who loved to sing and dance
But I am also that woman who has wisdom
and knows when to take a chance

I am not just what you see in front of you
much like the cover of a book
you have to et to know me
so take a second look

I am as deep as an ocean
and as unexplored as outer space
The possibilites I have
don't always show on my face

I am always changing
But yet I stay the same
Happy, Sad, fun, serious,
 and even sometimes a little bit lame

So don't be quick to think you know me
Or put me in a box
I am the woman who keeps them all together
and also the girl that loves to rock

2000

searching for me

   Where did I go?
Did anyone see?
I am lost.
Cant you see?
I used to be in charge
I used to run my world
now I am ever changing
my universe unfurled.
catch me if i go by.
don't ask me to explain why.
my soul cries out to break away.
losing much of its sanity every day.
my strength is waning
the facade ever feigning
Im inside somewhere
looking for the light.
holding on for all my might.
don't loose sight of me.
throw my a line
set me free.

Lifted

The spirit inside
Forever trapped
Seeing nothing
Realizing everything
Still reaching
Always searching
Abominable potential
Restless heart

Today I found my lover

Today I found my lover
In doing so I found myself

So long afraid of him
I kept my heart on a shelf.

Wishing that he wanted me
So many years alone in the night.

Accusations and betrayal
Our only conversation were fights

My heart so longed for this boy
Now a man

He also longed for me
But I didn't understand

Now we have new life
Our hearts sing again

Today I found my lover
My soul mate and friend